The Name is…

I found it.

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Humanity (?)

Have you ever question humanity?

I remember a quote or a question from a Leonardo DiCaprio movie, Black Diamod. Very interesting movie. He play as as Dannie Archer in the movie.

Danny Archer: Sometimes I wonder… will God ever forgive us for what we’ve done to each other?

There is another line after that question, but I’ll leave it at that and let anyone who are an internet jumper who jumped at a misfortune and deserted in this blog answer it.


Hello, internet people!

You’re an arse.

You are a fictional character of my mind that, I, “magically” turn you alive in this blog as a persona of my other self because I’m that lonely, so please, language. By the way, kita perlu pilih nama yang okeh buat lo.

You sound crazy and desperately lonely. Why we need to name me?

Because I said so. Now, gue bakal mulai blogging dan lo mulai pilih nama. Go surf the internet. Jangan tenggelam.

Internet, here I come!

Sebenarnya selama ini banyak sekali postingan blog yang udah gue tulis, tapi semua cuma tersimpan manis di draft. Kenapa ga gue publish? Mungkin karena materi di dalamnya so dark and depressing. Gue ga yakin postingan semacam itu pantas ada di blog ini yang isinya curhat colongan dan jungkir balik kepala gue.

Sorry to inform you, tapi Master sekarang juga lagi curhat.

Yeah, I know. Shut up. Udah dapet nama?

Gimana kalo Samantha?


Iya, kayak di film Hers.

No, I won’t name you Samantha. We are NOT and WILL NOT have you named Samantha.


Gue ga mau punya romantic relationship with my own mind.


Find another name.

So yeah, blog ini dari awal pembuatannya emang buat curcol terselubung sebagai “teman” yang nemenin gue di saat gue beradaptasi di tempat baru dan lingkungan baru. Seeing the world in different point of view. Lepasin pikiran liar gue menjalar bebas. It was always fun, but it gradually became darker as time goes by. Gue ga suka itu.

Is it part of growing up?

Old. Growing old. It’s growing older in your case now, Master.

Kenyataan ini pahit.

Hi Blog: Back to Basic

Nice to see that there’s still some people visiting this blog. Somehow I’m not really surprised anymore when some lewd keywords that directed the visitor to this blog. Again as usual, this blog has no such of content.

Oh, btw, HELLO!

Master… you’re back?

Yes, I’m back my loved one. For you.

I-I don’t know what to say.

You don’t need to say anything, I’m here aren’t I? It’s all that matter.

I’m happy, Master. :’)

You should be, because I’ve spent my nights doing “spring-cleaning” on you. This blog was too messy.

Like your mind perhaps?


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Once Packed

I was trying to organize my stuff today… Trying to make everything clean again. Putting the remnant of yours  into boxes.

Your cup, the cute pink teddy bear you gave to me on my birthday, your letter.

Your smell.

Your breath.

Your words.

Your promises.

It’s still in my room all this time.

The funny thing is the heavier the box, the lighter I become.

I’m not trying to throw you away. I want to put you in a better place.


Because eventually, it’s where you belong all this time.